another split

Personal Frustration

"Anyway" she said "you can´t just came in here and talk to me about those things. I have to be ready for this."

Slowly and steady picking on her blouse sleeve seam.  I just walked of frustrated, to numb to get dressed inside, standing in the hallway, actually not standing, moving  and putting on   clothes at he same time, avoiding to face the darkness.

Here it was again the horror of not having my own way and not being able to cope with it.
I really have to, I really have to.

News from the Sun

the split in space

Do Germans say "Ich liebe Dich"?

3 Litebulbs

to mr weisszäckler the thing between hand and lamp are 3 litebulbs

upstairs-downstairs

Vanity fairy tell me, is it possible to make chic money?

Vanity 1
yes i was there from hanging out in shops, reading french literature looking up  at well kept  mid 40´s ladies to state that's 5000€,without a blink in my normally so nervous eye, that´s 1000€, that is an exclusive 150€ going back to Flaubert working on his instant breakthrough on the countryside. It turned out the truth in beauty, i am not an economical success, means i couldn't´t channel my mercantile prodigy persona in my sometime although style fixated live . turns out style is again with YSL not the to be mistaken with fashion, so i guess i rely myself on embarking to the instant classic achievement instead of aspiring promoting anything new at all . as a job , as an artwork  as whatever. oh  my cash flow wunderkind  what do i not know?

Vanity 2
another of my endeavours in achieving more assets in my own bank money market was recently doing logistic work for an shooting of photos with German celebrities, still don´t know who this is at all. me after being offered help , having asked for this and not being giving took the challenge and did the search on my own. As it turned out it was , shame on me, very unprofessional to communicate, threatening to destroy the valuable connections and spotless reputation of my recently entered community of co freelancers in the fashion world. Quickly a lot of things turned very crazy.As it seems there are people in those marketing agencies which are seriously assuming that their is a person outside  their agencies which does not know what summer or winter collection is. Super dry funny. Oh backstabbing brainwashed undead real schizophrenic world of marketing gibberish what do I not know?

I hope the reader has much to good an opinion of me to suppose that I ever would have dreamed of paying a visit to so remote an industry as German celebrities  campaigns, if I thought the industry whom I proposed to honour with  a visit were not merely out of fashion , but out of money and could be serviceable in no possible manner ever.